Turning 38

I don't know why but as one gets older, birthday doesn't seem to be a welcoming day. Perhaps as I inch closer to a different decade, it is even more so. Maybe the best way to think about it is to just be grateful for what I have - family and health. Suddenly now I think of my mom when she was my age, what she faced in life. It was around that time that she brought all 3 of us to the US by herself to start a new life. She worked in the US for a while and brought Joshua back to stay in HK leaving the daughters in the US. I cannot imagine what anguish she had to go through in making those decisions. As I think about the trial that I face now, no matter how small or big, I am just thankful that I don't have to go through it alone. So, as I turned 38, I shall continue to look up for guidance to where He wants us to go and do. I probably need to let go of a few things and make up my mind to acquire a few others. I should at least find some joy on my own birthday.....