It's hard to believe but little mui mui has grown right under our eyes. She can actually fit into the 0-3 months clothes. She seems to be more responsive when I 'talk' to her. She even sucked her thumb last night! But honestly though, I really cannot remember much of this period with Ryan. It seems such a blur right now. But I hope by journaling it, I can remember it more in the future. Oh thank goodness mui mui is turning lighter on her skin (phew!). But she is still such a light sleeper that she needs to be held. Or is it that she is spoiled of being held. Who knows. I guess I am a little bit lax about the rules this time around.
Lately I have been thinking about what it is that God wants me to do being a SAHM again besides taking care of the family. I did discover a new passion which is to make all kinds of soups! Well, I thought about ppl that God might want me to minister to. Then just the other night, I took Ryan to Awana and stayed behind for the first time with bb; my ex cubbie's parent also stayed behind and we started talking - for the whole night. We eventually turned from talking about work and kids to Christianity. It darned on me that this is what being a christian is about..to testify for Him. So, I need to purposely pray for opportunity to follow up with her. Then My and Alex's family has been on my mind. I just pray for somehow being a blessing in their stressful life at this time.
For the housing project, while I cannot turn the clock back and not do it any more; I just pray that some how He'd be glorified through the process of building as well as after it is done. I really do not desire the house. The grandiose of it does not excite me. I just need a practical place to live. But again I cannot change what has been decided, I just pray for His mercy. If it is not meant to be, God make it so; if it is, reveal to me how you want to use it.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Life After 1 month
In law finally left just about when my one month confinement was over. It was the right timing in that she probably could use some rest and we were also ready to be on our own again. But boy, the first Monday being by myself, I was not mentally to do anything - I mean anything like going out, cooking, etc other than taking care of Katelyn. What made it worst was the Saturday before that we met a friendly-turned-nasty neighbor in the new house that just added to my anxiety. I remember having to pick up Ryan in the afternoon was such a huge undertaking. Perhaps that was a little bit of post partum that I was experiencing. I knew I needed to take it slowly; so the next day, I was able to add laundry to the to-do list. Toward the end of the week, God sent me a good friend, Jessica, to just help around the house. That was very thoughtful of her and I am thankful for that. She brought lunch and held baby, and even picked up Ryan for me one time. I must say the support from the church family has been tremendous....from the gifts to bringing pots after pots of soup. That's gotta be the blessing that comes only from serving Him.
Adjusting to the new life has been a bit harder than I thought. Katelyn esp. needing to be held alot...well, perhaps we are a bit less discipline about that with her figuring that she will be our last baby to hold...honestly I can hardly remember much about this period with Ryan. How did I spend my days? I guess I didn't take my time to enjoy him as much I should have back then. We both agree that we seem to enjoy this little more. She sleeps with us most of the time too. I call her a little mieu mieu cause she is tiny :). BTW, I hope she turns lighter soon and that her double eyelids will finally show!
Adjusting to the new life has been a bit harder than I thought. Katelyn esp. needing to be held alot...well, perhaps we are a bit less discipline about that with her figuring that she will be our last baby to hold...honestly I can hardly remember much about this period with Ryan. How did I spend my days? I guess I didn't take my time to enjoy him as much I should have back then. We both agree that we seem to enjoy this little more. She sleeps with us most of the time too. I call her a little mieu mieu cause she is tiny :). BTW, I hope she turns lighter soon and that her double eyelids will finally show!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Dec 2009
Dec 12- It was Charles' bday..we went up to the city for a family xmas pic and also get some car business done, my mucus plug came out and I had a haunch she might come that day...
Finally when we went to pick up Ryan at Awana, I knew the cramp isn't just occasional thing, it was definitely labor pain. So, we went to the hospital directly around 10 pm. Mandy came and picked up Ryan to bring him home.
Once we were admitted, I was dilated to 4. They asked me for pain med and I said sure. That's when my nightmare began. The anestheisologist took forever to put the med in and once she did, I was shocked to be numb to the extend that I did. I could not feel my leg and upper body....the feeling was so scary seeing people move me and yet I didn't feel a thing. When I had to push, I didn't know what the heck I was doing but she came out. 6 lb 7 oz 19.75" at 12:01 am. With all the hoopla, she just had to miss her daddy's birthday.
When I wheeled to the maternity room, I remember telling Charles that I'd better be able to walk again. I was genuinely scared for being paralyzed. The helplessness was unspeakable. Then it literally took 5 hours before I could feel my legs again. What a relief!
While keep Katelyn in the room, I was feeding and resting in a bad position and it brought on a massive muscle pain and headache. Finally once we got home, I was nursing her on the bed and it probably also caused my pelvus pain as well. That was excruciating. I literally looked at my king size bed in tears because every time I had to climb in and out of the bed, my pelvic muscles would hurt so badly and it radiates down my back thigh. I prayed and ppl gave me chinese pads and finally it took 2nd week for the pain to go away. I remember thinking there is no way I am having any more babies....vaginal stitch pain, headache, milk engorgement and stress, and then this pelvic pain, that's way too much. But those days still passed. I don't know how I got through them.
Katelyn has been a joy. I didn't get to enjoy her much at the hospital with all of my own problems. But once we are into the 2nd week and things are more routine (well, at least my milk is enough for her now and not much aches and pains on my part), I definitely got to slow down and think about what she really means to us. I remember thinking I would pray that I would be there for her confinement. Somehow I just think that a woman's blessing is definitely to have her mom take care of her during confinement. I thought about my mom alot one night....just imagining how life would be different if she were around. These last few days, I am more struck by the fact that we really brought a new life here and we would need to start training her up all over again. The weight of responsibility finally sinks in. I try to enjoy her while feeding her. I relish the sight of her grabbing on my shirt and her other hand rest on her head while she feeds. I giggle at all the funny sounds she makes. Ryan has been loving to her. He loves to kiss her and touches her hair. He enjoys holding her too. He is adjusting fairly well except that he has some usual disciplinary issues that we need to deal with.
We still cannot tell whom she looks like yet. But we just take each moment slowly and treasure the time now. As I look at her fingers and toes, I cannot help but marvel at the creator. God made her in my womb. Thank you for the gift, Lord.
Finally when we went to pick up Ryan at Awana, I knew the cramp isn't just occasional thing, it was definitely labor pain. So, we went to the hospital directly around 10 pm. Mandy came and picked up Ryan to bring him home.
Once we were admitted, I was dilated to 4. They asked me for pain med and I said sure. That's when my nightmare began. The anestheisologist took forever to put the med in and once she did, I was shocked to be numb to the extend that I did. I could not feel my leg and upper body....the feeling was so scary seeing people move me and yet I didn't feel a thing. When I had to push, I didn't know what the heck I was doing but she came out. 6 lb 7 oz 19.75" at 12:01 am. With all the hoopla, she just had to miss her daddy's birthday.
When I wheeled to the maternity room, I remember telling Charles that I'd better be able to walk again. I was genuinely scared for being paralyzed. The helplessness was unspeakable. Then it literally took 5 hours before I could feel my legs again. What a relief!
While keep Katelyn in the room, I was feeding and resting in a bad position and it brought on a massive muscle pain and headache. Finally once we got home, I was nursing her on the bed and it probably also caused my pelvus pain as well. That was excruciating. I literally looked at my king size bed in tears because every time I had to climb in and out of the bed, my pelvic muscles would hurt so badly and it radiates down my back thigh. I prayed and ppl gave me chinese pads and finally it took 2nd week for the pain to go away. I remember thinking there is no way I am having any more babies....vaginal stitch pain, headache, milk engorgement and stress, and then this pelvic pain, that's way too much. But those days still passed. I don't know how I got through them.
Katelyn has been a joy. I didn't get to enjoy her much at the hospital with all of my own problems. But once we are into the 2nd week and things are more routine (well, at least my milk is enough for her now and not much aches and pains on my part), I definitely got to slow down and think about what she really means to us. I remember thinking I would pray that I would be there for her confinement. Somehow I just think that a woman's blessing is definitely to have her mom take care of her during confinement. I thought about my mom alot one night....just imagining how life would be different if she were around. These last few days, I am more struck by the fact that we really brought a new life here and we would need to start training her up all over again. The weight of responsibility finally sinks in. I try to enjoy her while feeding her. I relish the sight of her grabbing on my shirt and her other hand rest on her head while she feeds. I giggle at all the funny sounds she makes. Ryan has been loving to her. He loves to kiss her and touches her hair. He enjoys holding her too. He is adjusting fairly well except that he has some usual disciplinary issues that we need to deal with.
We still cannot tell whom she looks like yet. But we just take each moment slowly and treasure the time now. As I look at her fingers and toes, I cannot help but marvel at the creator. God made her in my womb. Thank you for the gift, Lord.
Last Quarter of 2009
Wow, so much has transpired in the last quarter of 2009...it will be a task to summarize it now....
Oct - not too eventful...
Nov - Mandy arrived in mid of the month for a 5 wk stay of her business trip. Definitely more work on my part having her here....cooking, transportation etc. But I guess it's nice to have her around. She was quite stressed about the whole work arrangement but for now the job seems to be safe.
Nov 12 - Finally the unthinkable happened. I went into work with just a slight inclination that I might be rif'ed but hardly did I think it would actually happened. When Moni stopped by my cube and asked me to go with her, I knew. It was undoubtedly a very emotional experience. In some ways, it was very surreal as if I had to get a grip on how best to react to it. For sure, it definitely helped me learn how to react to someone else in the future. It was a very pride thing I guess. I think it took me a couple days to just accept it and realize it that this is God's blessing in disguise. Now I do not have to struggle with the decision and all the maternity and unemployment benefits are there for me to take advantage of...how bad can it be?!
To take the leave early was actually a good thing. I needed that extra time to clean out stuff for the bb. With Ryan being in school, those few weeks were probably the most stressless and free!
The Corolla Incident - how can we top this one? On our way to take Mandy to visit Uncle Wong's family, Charles' happened to drive the corolla for this trip and while we were on 280, I noticed something was quite right and little did I know that he was trying to stop an uncontrollable car! It sped up from 70 to 90 mph and the brake would not work. Once we realized the situation, we weren't so much panic as we could not believe that was happening, so we prayed. Praise God, he was able to slow and brake the car eventually. Then we went on our way for the rest of the business....later we found that a loose cable from previous mechanic work very likely has caused it. But that was big enough of a scare for us to look for a car. As much as I tried not to buy anything, I had to give in on this one. So, we have a 2007 Honda Odyssey sitting outside!
Oct - not too eventful...
Nov - Mandy arrived in mid of the month for a 5 wk stay of her business trip. Definitely more work on my part having her here....cooking, transportation etc. But I guess it's nice to have her around. She was quite stressed about the whole work arrangement but for now the job seems to be safe.
Nov 12 - Finally the unthinkable happened. I went into work with just a slight inclination that I might be rif'ed but hardly did I think it would actually happened. When Moni stopped by my cube and asked me to go with her, I knew. It was undoubtedly a very emotional experience. In some ways, it was very surreal as if I had to get a grip on how best to react to it. For sure, it definitely helped me learn how to react to someone else in the future. It was a very pride thing I guess. I think it took me a couple days to just accept it and realize it that this is God's blessing in disguise. Now I do not have to struggle with the decision and all the maternity and unemployment benefits are there for me to take advantage of...how bad can it be?!
To take the leave early was actually a good thing. I needed that extra time to clean out stuff for the bb. With Ryan being in school, those few weeks were probably the most stressless and free!
The Corolla Incident - how can we top this one? On our way to take Mandy to visit Uncle Wong's family, Charles' happened to drive the corolla for this trip and while we were on 280, I noticed something was quite right and little did I know that he was trying to stop an uncontrollable car! It sped up from 70 to 90 mph and the brake would not work. Once we realized the situation, we weren't so much panic as we could not believe that was happening, so we prayed. Praise God, he was able to slow and brake the car eventually. Then we went on our way for the rest of the business....later we found that a loose cable from previous mechanic work very likely has caused it. But that was big enough of a scare for us to look for a car. As much as I tried not to buy anything, I had to give in on this one. So, we have a 2007 Honda Odyssey sitting outside!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Random Thoughts for month of Sept!
It's hard to believe Sept is drawing to an end. So much has happened since my last entry....so let's see how much I rememeber..
Ryan:
The little guy finally started kindergarten at Veritas. He loves the uniform and so into wearing a belt. I don't think neither Charles or I was too sentimental about him going to real school....we were more concerned about getting there on time! Which we finally was late for a minute today. He is also very into the traffic light behavial rating that he gets daily. He loves getting green light :). So, I try using this at home for his morning routine and so far it's not all that successful; he still has a hard time to get ready in the morning.
The school is small and I was shocked to see my ex BSF leader on the first day. She actually brought all her 3 sons to the school after keeping them at home for a few years. Later on, we chatted up and found out they are also in the construction business. What a small world. But we are not making any meaningful connection on that yet......other parents are okay...the chinese ones seem a lot odd? I find myself not being very social in the parent circle...perhaps because in the back of my mind, we will not be there for the long haul.
Ryan also started Chinese school on Fri nights. Again, it is hard to find myself mingle with the Taiwanese (mostly) parents. We have been trying to take advantage of the night off to hang out. So far, just once!
Our Sat is the regular Awana night and Sunday evening is choir....plus the Sat soccer and volleyball, we really don't have too much time left. So, time really has flown by.
House:
It's not progressing as well as we'd like with the current architect. Maybe he is indeed as bad as my brother commented about him. So, we have been looking around and actually found some interesting lead. Really need to pray for wisdom on how to proceed from here. Sometimes this whole ordeal as I view it really gets to me and I vented on him. I am just not ready to make decision on thousands or dollars; and the thought of going through this for at least a year from now seems so grueling.....so it's so conflicting for me....I want to be supportive and yet I am stressed by it. I know I cannot walk away from it either....so, I feel like I am stuck in this project. Sigh.
Church
Doing Sat night these days really makes me feel it physically. Having to continue with Sunday morning for at least another month....I don't know...I just don't want to be I-can-do-it-all....someone even gave me material to start something with the kids on Sunday and my first thought was hello?! do I look like I have nothing else to do? but i got two girls interested anyways...I don't know how I can follow up with them. People seem to care and yet no too many actually do something about it. I wonder how long I will last before I become bitter which is a state I never want to be in. I am trying to avoid getting there as much as I can.
Work
It's work. I was shocked they actually cancelled the Nov shutdown citing things are slowly improving. But I have a feeling that once the reinstate the salary and eliminate the shutdown, they will have a substantial layoff first before that happens. So, we will see. I am not worried or I should say I cannot worry too much since it is absolutely out of my control. People ask me about what happen after the baby comes, I honestly have no idea. I think the only certainty is that I don't want to work full time. Beyond that, I have no clue. I just trust that He will guide the way when the time comes.
Friends on my heart....
- Visited Evie finally a couple weeks ago. She looked great considering what she had gone through. Pastor was upbeat even though he had to quit his job to help out. I admire her steadfastness...I can sense her surendering to His will and sovereignty. Not so much 'why me'; but somehow just found the strength to live and (homeschool!). I just pray for her suffering to be lessened and this illness be rid from her body soon.
- Alex and My's situation also weighs in my heart. She has opened up to me about her struggles and I feel just as helpless not knowing how to lessen their pain. I so wish they can see God in all of this....and so one day they will know without a doubt that He has carried them through and He was molding both of them in the process. So, besides praying and being there for them, we will probably feed them!
- Irona's coworker gave birth to a 3 month pre-mature baby and prior to that her husband just had a surgery for his cancer....not even mentioning it took them years to conceive.....I honestly don't know why they are being tried so heavily but the only thing I can hang on to is that He won't give us more than we can handle. I know the baby has been striving and doing well; I can sense that God is making them incredible witness for Him. I hope to visit the baby one day.
Moments with Ryan...
Today out of the blue we talked about life and death while we were driving....something about when mom and dad grow older and ryan said "I don't want you to die cause I won't see you again." I had to remind him of course mommy wants to be with you as long as she can but we will see each other in heaven. It was so poignant that it makes me realize how much I need to treasure my moments with him. Life is unpredictable...
Ryan:
The little guy finally started kindergarten at Veritas. He loves the uniform and so into wearing a belt. I don't think neither Charles or I was too sentimental about him going to real school....we were more concerned about getting there on time! Which we finally was late for a minute today. He is also very into the traffic light behavial rating that he gets daily. He loves getting green light :). So, I try using this at home for his morning routine and so far it's not all that successful; he still has a hard time to get ready in the morning.
The school is small and I was shocked to see my ex BSF leader on the first day. She actually brought all her 3 sons to the school after keeping them at home for a few years. Later on, we chatted up and found out they are also in the construction business. What a small world. But we are not making any meaningful connection on that yet......other parents are okay...the chinese ones seem a lot odd? I find myself not being very social in the parent circle...perhaps because in the back of my mind, we will not be there for the long haul.
Ryan also started Chinese school on Fri nights. Again, it is hard to find myself mingle with the Taiwanese (mostly) parents. We have been trying to take advantage of the night off to hang out. So far, just once!
Our Sat is the regular Awana night and Sunday evening is choir....plus the Sat soccer and volleyball, we really don't have too much time left. So, time really has flown by.
House:
It's not progressing as well as we'd like with the current architect. Maybe he is indeed as bad as my brother commented about him. So, we have been looking around and actually found some interesting lead. Really need to pray for wisdom on how to proceed from here. Sometimes this whole ordeal as I view it really gets to me and I vented on him. I am just not ready to make decision on thousands or dollars; and the thought of going through this for at least a year from now seems so grueling.....so it's so conflicting for me....I want to be supportive and yet I am stressed by it. I know I cannot walk away from it either....so, I feel like I am stuck in this project. Sigh.
Church
Doing Sat night these days really makes me feel it physically. Having to continue with Sunday morning for at least another month....I don't know...I just don't want to be I-can-do-it-all....someone even gave me material to start something with the kids on Sunday and my first thought was hello?! do I look like I have nothing else to do? but i got two girls interested anyways...I don't know how I can follow up with them. People seem to care and yet no too many actually do something about it. I wonder how long I will last before I become bitter which is a state I never want to be in. I am trying to avoid getting there as much as I can.
Work
It's work. I was shocked they actually cancelled the Nov shutdown citing things are slowly improving. But I have a feeling that once the reinstate the salary and eliminate the shutdown, they will have a substantial layoff first before that happens. So, we will see. I am not worried or I should say I cannot worry too much since it is absolutely out of my control. People ask me about what happen after the baby comes, I honestly have no idea. I think the only certainty is that I don't want to work full time. Beyond that, I have no clue. I just trust that He will guide the way when the time comes.
Friends on my heart....
- Visited Evie finally a couple weeks ago. She looked great considering what she had gone through. Pastor was upbeat even though he had to quit his job to help out. I admire her steadfastness...I can sense her surendering to His will and sovereignty. Not so much 'why me'; but somehow just found the strength to live and (homeschool!). I just pray for her suffering to be lessened and this illness be rid from her body soon.
- Alex and My's situation also weighs in my heart. She has opened up to me about her struggles and I feel just as helpless not knowing how to lessen their pain. I so wish they can see God in all of this....and so one day they will know without a doubt that He has carried them through and He was molding both of them in the process. So, besides praying and being there for them, we will probably feed them!
- Irona's coworker gave birth to a 3 month pre-mature baby and prior to that her husband just had a surgery for his cancer....not even mentioning it took them years to conceive.....I honestly don't know why they are being tried so heavily but the only thing I can hang on to is that He won't give us more than we can handle. I know the baby has been striving and doing well; I can sense that God is making them incredible witness for Him. I hope to visit the baby one day.
Moments with Ryan...
Today out of the blue we talked about life and death while we were driving....something about when mom and dad grow older and ryan said "I don't want you to die cause I won't see you again." I had to remind him of course mommy wants to be with you as long as she can but we will see each other in heaven. It was so poignant that it makes me realize how much I need to treasure my moments with him. Life is unpredictable...
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
How life is progressing
Baby Tsai
I am officially 22 weeks along and we are excited to find out it will be a girl! I guess part of me wants either gender. But I am glad I didn't place too much desire on either since I don't get to decide anyways. So, that's how it turned out and we are just grateful things are going well and uneventful.
I have been feeling the small kicks and somersaults these days. It never fails to amaze me and of course I almost forget what it was like. I must say I do enjoy being pregnant. I am definitely getting bigger. Gained like almost 8 lbs in the last month! Wasai!
My gratefulness goes beyond that esp. since finding out my friend who likely has to terminate a pregnancy due to a genetic condition. I cannot even begin to feel what they are going through. I just pray for them.
A lesson on obedience
Then after the church retreat, somehow I am more convicted than ever to just get things smoothed out with the leaders. It felt right to do it now. It was painful - trust me. Having to apologize for something I didn't think I was 100% at fault is tough. So, it took me one long night to put things in perspective. Irrespective to what others did, I felt God just wanted me to rectify my wrongs and that's all I needed to focus on. That's what happened. Toward the end of the night, we were also given the news of his departure which he only decided to confide with a few just in recent days. Right there and then, I knew God was gracious to ME! Had I learned the news without the having the air cleared, I would have to carry that burden with me for a long time. So, another example of blessing from listening to Him. So, what's gonna happen? I don't know. But perhaps that's better for both parties...and it's time to move on.
STLCCC
This past Sunday we helped put together a dinner gathering for the STLCCC in the bay area. It started from having Louisa in town, then the Pans, and it quickly grew to a 30 people reunion. It was definitely a blessing to see the familiar faces (at least more than 1/2 people I know). Just remembering the spiritual home I once had and the friendship I was able to carry with me to this day.
House
Looks like we are moving along with the private driveway issue. Met with the difficult neighbor and sorta got their blessing. He is some ex exec at Oracle and other startup. Found out he is also a leader at the presbyterian church. Then we also met the owner of the driveway. The Welshs are very nice and we had a great talk with them. The husband is a doctor and somehow we got to talk about the wife's Ob and sure enough it was Dr. Inouye. Instantly, we bonded. I even recommended the chinese doc to her as they are hoping to have more children.
The block party that we had last Sunday was also a good chance to meet the rest of the neighbors. I must admit the block is a very friendly and homey place. I just wish we can get the house built soon. But thinking about the amount of research and stress that we will have to go through makes me crinch. Perhaps I need to focus more to enjoy the process....
I am officially 22 weeks along and we are excited to find out it will be a girl! I guess part of me wants either gender. But I am glad I didn't place too much desire on either since I don't get to decide anyways. So, that's how it turned out and we are just grateful things are going well and uneventful.
I have been feeling the small kicks and somersaults these days. It never fails to amaze me and of course I almost forget what it was like. I must say I do enjoy being pregnant. I am definitely getting bigger. Gained like almost 8 lbs in the last month! Wasai!
My gratefulness goes beyond that esp. since finding out my friend who likely has to terminate a pregnancy due to a genetic condition. I cannot even begin to feel what they are going through. I just pray for them.
A lesson on obedience
Then after the church retreat, somehow I am more convicted than ever to just get things smoothed out with the leaders. It felt right to do it now. It was painful - trust me. Having to apologize for something I didn't think I was 100% at fault is tough. So, it took me one long night to put things in perspective. Irrespective to what others did, I felt God just wanted me to rectify my wrongs and that's all I needed to focus on. That's what happened. Toward the end of the night, we were also given the news of his departure which he only decided to confide with a few just in recent days. Right there and then, I knew God was gracious to ME! Had I learned the news without the having the air cleared, I would have to carry that burden with me for a long time. So, another example of blessing from listening to Him. So, what's gonna happen? I don't know. But perhaps that's better for both parties...and it's time to move on.
STLCCC
This past Sunday we helped put together a dinner gathering for the STLCCC in the bay area. It started from having Louisa in town, then the Pans, and it quickly grew to a 30 people reunion. It was definitely a blessing to see the familiar faces (at least more than 1/2 people I know). Just remembering the spiritual home I once had and the friendship I was able to carry with me to this day.
House
Looks like we are moving along with the private driveway issue. Met with the difficult neighbor and sorta got their blessing. He is some ex exec at Oracle and other startup. Found out he is also a leader at the presbyterian church. Then we also met the owner of the driveway. The Welshs are very nice and we had a great talk with them. The husband is a doctor and somehow we got to talk about the wife's Ob and sure enough it was Dr. Inouye. Instantly, we bonded. I even recommended the chinese doc to her as they are hoping to have more children.
The block party that we had last Sunday was also a good chance to meet the rest of the neighbors. I must admit the block is a very friendly and homey place. I just wish we can get the house built soon. But thinking about the amount of research and stress that we will have to go through makes me crinch. Perhaps I need to focus more to enjoy the process....
Monday, July 27, 2009
Just random things
Oh it's been over a month since my last post....so I am hoping to jot down some random thoughts before I forget!
Baby
- Everything is going well so far. We opted for the 2 genetic testings without NT and thankfully the result is negative. I am just grateful for not having to go through the stress of ammio as in my other friends. The wait they had to go through is quite dreadful. I hope sheirman's baby will be fine for the rest of testing.
- Kudos to Dr. Inouye again. During the 2nd apt, he had a hard trying to locate the heart beat; so instead of alarming me, he just got the ultrasound machine and found the little bean that way.
- Coming to almost 19 weeks, I have been able to feel the bean fluttering in my tummy. I am still in awe of it esp. I was watching some video clips of fetus growth. Seeing how the glob of substance just grow into a complex creature can only be the work of an all powerful God.
- Today we went to visit Eve and Stan's newborn. Boy, seeing her labor through the round the clock schedule brought back alot of memory. I really almost forgot about how hard it was during the first couple weeks.
- Tonight we had Irona and Eric over for a chat. Somehow we got to the topic of getting pregnant and we started sharing our story with them. It really reminded me of a greater responsibility that we have to share this testimony because indeed we have learned so much from it. Pray that they will not have to go through all these trials but just have the baby at His timing.
- Oh I also went through a rough patch with another couple who have had a tough time getting preg with 2nd. We did not share the news with them timing but they already have the knowledge. So, being on the other side of the fence, I knew exactly what not to do. She was kinda cold and nonchalant to both of us; but I know I cannot shy away from that. So, I mustered up some strength and wrote them an email to share the news and also to apologized for the delay in telling them. All is fine now (at least I don't feel the tension on my side anymore). I wish my rough relationship with another couple could end the same way. But never have I felt like they really reached out to me at all. So, still praying how to end the in-passe.
Ryan
- Thank God Ryan's willingness to speak Chinese has improved greatly after going to summer school. He memorized alot of poems and recited them proudly. We just need to be more disciplined ourselves in speaking to them in Chinese and making him speak at the same time.
- The other day while we were playing balloon in the living, all of a sudden he just stopped and started cleaning the living room. It was the most hilarious thing. He went on for at least 10 min. before picking up the racket again.
- My latest lesson with a 5 yr old is to relentlessly dig up the reason why they throw a tandrum. It really helps clear up misunderstanding on both sides. One good example was he got all upset because I did not let him eat snack before dinner. So, after he calmed down from his tandrum, I explained to him that he could get a snack if it is 30 min. before meal time. So, I instructed him to ask me about the timing next time. You know what, he got it. He now asks me about the timing and we both don't need to get upset.
- The other day he was screaming when his dad asked him to come out of a bath. After they both calm down, I explained to him screaming was not the right behavior and he needed to apologize; meanwhile, if he wanted to stay in the tub longer, he could ask nicely for 5 min. instead of screaming. So, understanding the frustration and giving him a tool to express his need is what helps to prevent future episodes.
- Even there are times when I accidentally hurt him while I thought he was just being difficult; so I got a chance to apologize tonight (but I had no idea how I hurt him as he claimed hehe).
House
- God has taught me to be submissive in this one. Rather than fighting it, I have been trying to understand that this rebuilding a house thing could be a blessing. Though the process will not be easy, it will definitely be a growing opportunity for both of us. I am determined to not let it be our stumbling block but one that bound us closer together. We try to pray regularly and specificially for it (which remind me we need to make up prayer tomorrow). To record God's blessing in every step.
Ok, I am getting tired. More to come.
Baby
- Everything is going well so far. We opted for the 2 genetic testings without NT and thankfully the result is negative. I am just grateful for not having to go through the stress of ammio as in my other friends. The wait they had to go through is quite dreadful. I hope sheirman's baby will be fine for the rest of testing.
- Kudos to Dr. Inouye again. During the 2nd apt, he had a hard trying to locate the heart beat; so instead of alarming me, he just got the ultrasound machine and found the little bean that way.
- Coming to almost 19 weeks, I have been able to feel the bean fluttering in my tummy. I am still in awe of it esp. I was watching some video clips of fetus growth. Seeing how the glob of substance just grow into a complex creature can only be the work of an all powerful God.
- Today we went to visit Eve and Stan's newborn. Boy, seeing her labor through the round the clock schedule brought back alot of memory. I really almost forgot about how hard it was during the first couple weeks.
- Tonight we had Irona and Eric over for a chat. Somehow we got to the topic of getting pregnant and we started sharing our story with them. It really reminded me of a greater responsibility that we have to share this testimony because indeed we have learned so much from it. Pray that they will not have to go through all these trials but just have the baby at His timing.
- Oh I also went through a rough patch with another couple who have had a tough time getting preg with 2nd. We did not share the news with them timing but they already have the knowledge. So, being on the other side of the fence, I knew exactly what not to do. She was kinda cold and nonchalant to both of us; but I know I cannot shy away from that. So, I mustered up some strength and wrote them an email to share the news and also to apologized for the delay in telling them. All is fine now (at least I don't feel the tension on my side anymore). I wish my rough relationship with another couple could end the same way. But never have I felt like they really reached out to me at all. So, still praying how to end the in-passe.
Ryan
- Thank God Ryan's willingness to speak Chinese has improved greatly after going to summer school. He memorized alot of poems and recited them proudly. We just need to be more disciplined ourselves in speaking to them in Chinese and making him speak at the same time.
- The other day while we were playing balloon in the living, all of a sudden he just stopped and started cleaning the living room. It was the most hilarious thing. He went on for at least 10 min. before picking up the racket again.
- My latest lesson with a 5 yr old is to relentlessly dig up the reason why they throw a tandrum. It really helps clear up misunderstanding on both sides. One good example was he got all upset because I did not let him eat snack before dinner. So, after he calmed down from his tandrum, I explained to him that he could get a snack if it is 30 min. before meal time. So, I instructed him to ask me about the timing next time. You know what, he got it. He now asks me about the timing and we both don't need to get upset.
- The other day he was screaming when his dad asked him to come out of a bath. After they both calm down, I explained to him screaming was not the right behavior and he needed to apologize; meanwhile, if he wanted to stay in the tub longer, he could ask nicely for 5 min. instead of screaming. So, understanding the frustration and giving him a tool to express his need is what helps to prevent future episodes.
- Even there are times when I accidentally hurt him while I thought he was just being difficult; so I got a chance to apologize tonight (but I had no idea how I hurt him as he claimed hehe).
House
- God has taught me to be submissive in this one. Rather than fighting it, I have been trying to understand that this rebuilding a house thing could be a blessing. Though the process will not be easy, it will definitely be a growing opportunity for both of us. I am determined to not let it be our stumbling block but one that bound us closer together. We try to pray regularly and specificially for it (which remind me we need to make up prayer tomorrow). To record God's blessing in every step.
Ok, I am getting tired. More to come.
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